I just posted a blog post about how I’ve been working so hard and I feel like I haven’t had any results. I’ve learned that results take time and not everything can be achieved overnight. I also learned that I have had small results that I initially ignored. I need to start appreciating these small results because they will keep me motivated to work harder. I wish someone would have told me this before, but I’m glad that I learned this now.
Yesterday was pretty great. My partner and I usually don’t have dinner together because he has to have dinner with his parent instead. They got in a fight yesterday and we were able to spend more time together. I got off of work at 9 pm, so I came back pretty late. We usually don’t have a lot of time to talk or hang out, but we did last night. Many things happened with his parent in the past that really scarred my partner. And I don’t like his parent. That’s why I don’t feel bad that they got into a fight. My partner works 40 hours a week, had to be his parent’s caretaker, and he has to clean the entire house every single week. I feel like his parent never gives him a break. My partner needs to rest. He pays for all of his parent’s expenses plus the medicine too. His parent refuses to pay for any of it. I don’t feel guilty at all. Many of us who are working and productive every day deserve to be treated with respect when we come back home.
I’m also glad that I have a pretty easy work load the rest of this week. Monday through Wednesday’s are my heaviest days for work. And I’m very happy to start relaxing now. Plus, our room is filled with snacks, food, and drinks. We don’t have to deal with his parent because we have all of our own stuff. Let the relaxation begin!
I’ve learned that instead of thinking negative thoughts, I want to start converting those thoughts into positive thoughts. I feel constantly bombarded by negative emotions because of my living conditions. Where you live matters and it’s important to have good living conditions. I don’t, however. I have to deal with loud noises and constant bad smells. It can get to me sometimes. I hope that today can be the start of a new beginning for myself. I want to catch myself whenever I have a negative thought and try to convert it into a happy one. I hope this works.
My 20s have been full of mistakes and learning. I’ve learned more than I ever learned than when I was a teenager. I feel like I was hit all at once with the responsibilities of being an adult. I didn’t know I had so much to learn, but I did. I’m glad I have a supportive partner to help me through my 20s. We started dating when I turned 20 and now I’m turning 26 this year. Life has been a whirlwind. There are so many experiences I wish I hadn’t experienced, but I know that I have become stronger from them. I hope to continue working on myself. And I’ve been spending every day trying to take care of myself very well. I’m not sure if everyone experienced these similar things in their 20s, but I hope I’m not the only one.
Whenever I’m relaxing, I always ask myself if I have to relax. Am I relaxing for the right reasons? If i’m only relaxing because I’m bored, I try to stop myself from doing so and I try to do something productive instead. I’m not a fan of wasting time. I honestly believe that working hard right now is crucial to my success in the future. You never know if you’re going to become so sick that you can’t work and you won’t have a backup plan to make money. It’s important to know what you can do to protect yourself in case of emergencies. And that’s why I work so hard with the time that I have during the day. I work hard right now so I can make more money in the future.
I’ve also learned that I wasted a lot of time when I was younger. I spent many hours scrolling through facebook and youtube when I should have been doing something more productive instead. I could have built a better future for myself. If you find that you are wasting a lot of time, try to reevaluate what you want for yourself. And just start working towards your goals. There is nothing better than the present to start doing something. Time is absolutely precious.
I say I’m lonely but…
I have 27 piano students. I have to commit to studying 2-3 hours every day for the lsat. I have a husband. I have to take care of my dog. I have so much work to do. I have to finish my law school applications.
And I’m thinking that I’m lonely 🤔 😂
Ask yourself what did you do today? Did you do something that will benefit you later in life? What did you do? Did you waste today?
If the answer to these questions is something you don’t want to hear, change it. Make a change. You can do it.
I never knew what would happen if I just stopped blogging after a couple of weeks. I saw my friends slowly stop blogging even though we promised that we would all blog together. They stopped posting, but I never blamed them for stopping. I knew that I wanted to continue. Honestly, I love blogging because it gives me a chance to tell someone about my thoughts. I could express my emotions and it made me feel better. My life started to slowly improve. I was never popular anywhere in my life. And I didn’t see my blogs gain any special popularity. My focus was just to enjoy blogging. I still enjoy it as much as day one of my blogging journey. Now, after about 300-400 blog posts, my enjoyment of blogging is still there. If I stopped blogging initially, I would never be where I am now. I’m so happy I stuck with it. If you are contemplating stopping blogging, don’t. Keep with it and you’ll see that it’s worth it. Keep going.
I can’t imagine my life without independence and freedom. I’m beginning to think that I really was a bird in my past life. I adore birds for some reason. When I was young, I would wear the peel off tattoos that were birds. I began drawing birds in my notebooks. I just adored them. I even had a bird necklace that I wore all the time.
I can’t stay in the same place or do the same thing every single day. I love routines, but it gets old. I love that every day can be filled with something new. I have to be able to control what I want to do for the day. It’s an amazing feeling. And I don’t believe in never changing. I constantly feel the urge to go out of my comfort zone. I’m happy this way. And I have to be free. Life has blessed me to be able to do this. I must have been a bird before 🦅
“Why stay in the same place when you can go anywhere you want?”
My car recently got in a car accident and it has been difficult to organize my plans. I’m sharing a car between my husband and I. He has to work also, so I’ve been struggling to reorganize my schedule so both of ours work together. My lsat test is also less than two weeks away and I’m nervous about it. Life has been an absolute whirlwind and I feel like I’m behind on everything. I really need to get caught up on everything I have to do. Applications for law school are also a top priority for me. I’m constantly working and studying. I’m so tired, but this is what I have to do right now. Wish me luck 🤞