I’ve never really been the best at something. I’ll always come in second place, but I’ve found that someone is always better than me in some way. And that’s incredibly frustrating. I envy those that are the best at what they do. I want to be recognized at the top for something. I want the glory of having my name and presence on a leaderboard. I just want to be the best at something.
I’ve been working so hard at everything I do. I try my absolute best. And I have gotten great at many things. It doesn’t matter though. Someone always shows up and beats me. I’ve been playing Mario Kart online and I win first place, but I want first place overall. I want to be ranked the highest. I know this is probably because I’m a perfectionist, but it doesn’t matter. Being first place is the best feeling ever.